My Creative Mind, where did it go?

I started thinking about my creative mind a while ago.

I was wondering where it went.  I have felt for a long time that I had lost it.  My brain just wasn’t thinking like it used to.  The thing is I still love my photography, but that great, intense drive seems to be the thing missing.  I think it’s with all my missing socks and underwear.  They’re probably having a blast.

I have to say the last three years have been incredibly challenging for me in my personal life.  I went through a divorce after 21 years of marriage. My ex then suffered a massive stroke and almost died and my daughter had thyroid cancer. I’m happy to report they’re both doing great.

I  am aware that my creative mind had to forfeit for a while due to all these things. I just didn’t have the room for it. Even as I came through all that it still didn’t seem to be there for me and I honestly felt scared.

Scared of not knowing my direction.

Enter one of my favorite clients.

She has always liked out of the box photo-shoots and has also been through some extremely challenging situations and she reached out to see if we could build a shoot around that.  The feeling was raw, vulnerable and dark.  She is one of the bravest souls I know. Always trying to show up.

What I found amazing was experimenting with that. How do you portray that kind of angst? I figure by allowing the space and let whatever just show up.

I love how these turned out. I loved shooting it. And there it was. My creative mind was back. At least for this shoot, but it’s still in there and that made me very happy.

I’m not sure where this will go, but I’m open.